empty...

it's truly empty....
but i try to make it full....
full of everything....
just want to focus about myself.....
i dont need people who trying to be so good.....just in front of me....
but behind of me....they lied everything to me.....

hmmm.....just to u.....
i dont need u in my life.....
i just need my life to complete me....
not u to complete me.....
i just be myself as what u know me bofore.....
i didnt love people if they not show me the love.....
i dont cry for someone if they never cry for me.....
i never need someone who just need me when they have nothing left......

i just pray that people who are very honest to be always at my side....
will always happy....n allah give them a good health.....amin....
yayang i love u.........always n forever.........

broke!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

everything was fine as i hope....
then my heart was just melt so nice this morning,
suddenly broke again....
it's all because i trust someone.........
go to hell just the damm shit human!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

it's still there....

love still in my heart...
but the big diffrent is....
i dont know the love is for who....
i just imagine i would love someone same or better then i love him before....

i dont know what else i should change in my life....
i want to be happy as i was before....
but deep in my heart i was hurting so deep...
till i was hope i want to die the next day....

some people said marrrige is not the solution for the problem....
and some people said die also not a solution..
but they said the bast solution was be calm n be patient...
and try to correct what the mistake that i have done....and face it.....

and now....i start a new step of my life....
and try to find love again so that my world  may bright again....

p/s: always pray that i will have someone that i can trust again....
       and i always pray that the person not judge me as my passed.....

hopeless

rindu...
tp pd siape???
kasih dan cinta maseh ade....
tp pd siape???
harapan maseh ade....
tp untuk ape???
kehilangan sudah pasti.....
itu utk aku.....

now!!!!!!!

well i think its not impossible if what u plan have change drastically.....
hmmmm
for me.....
everything change now.....
im alone....
no more him...no more love....no more groom....
no more future husband,....no more father of my children.....

im only alone who had just kept thinking about my stupid past!!!!!!!!!
i really hated it....
like im lossing myselF!!!!!!!!!!
n now i try so hard to make myself high again....
not just in the ground like now.....